Friday, May 12, 2006
Love or Habit?Is that feeling towards him love or habit? if it's love, then what about my feelings for him? both are good to me. so good that i do not know who i really feel for now. i know it's not right. but i'm stucked! stucked in between the both of them. stucked in between love and habit. it's so complicated.. so so so complicated.
towards Mr A:
i had sweet and weird feelings when with him. he was the first who taught me what love was. he makes my heart beat goes thump thump thump each time i'm with him. i know he loves me. but being with him makes me stress at times. cos sometimes, i couldnt feel his care for me. but every msg he sent me makes me feel very sweet. he gets jealous, he blames me being insensitive towards him. he makes my heart break. i could sense all these strongly from him. i always miss him. and, i know i love him den. but now, do i still love him?... or, does he still love me?
towards Mr B:
i had sweet and comfortable feelings when with him. it's a totally different feeling i got from Mr A. i trust him most. he's always there for me whenever i am sad. he will do things that made me feel very very sweet. he's thoughtful. being with him makes me forget everything. i can talk about anything when with him; from topics on family, friends, to topics like sex, anything. there's simply no restrictions. we go out often for movies and dinner. we sms each other almost everyday. we keep each other accompany when whichever party feels bored. we msn each other everyday even when he's at work. whenever he's not ard, i would miss him. miss his presence, miss his teasings.. whenever he's sad, i would feel sad and would worry for him. we share lots of ups and downs together.
i'm very attached to them. both of them. but i'm stucked between them. cos it was till now that i knew Mr B fell for me. A and B are good frenz. we are good frenz. but between us was more den just a love triangle. it's too complicated. i dont wish to lose anyone of them. i know things aint on the right path anymore. but i cant seem to get hold of it. it's losing control. i'm having the same feeling again. the feeling i got from Mr A from Mr B. that's not wat i want.
da xIang jie jie @ 4:45 PM
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