Tuesday, February 08, 2005
hmm.. yesterday wasn't a good day for me. went late for lecture. or rather don't even feel like going for lectures. i'm becoming more and more like gerald. haha. anyway, i brooded over tt matter. =--secret-= was rather upset. the moment i stepped into the LT, i wasn't looking and feeling very good. gerald sensed it i supposed. he always managed to sense it when i'm down with a problem, just that he do not know what it is. coz i always don't want to tell him. =X then he'll give me those "what's wrong with you look". so, when he approached me asking me what exactly happened, my tears rolled down uncontrollably. i hate myself then. i really do. i've been telling myself i should not brood over the matter anymore, and shall not cry. it's not worth my tears. but.. i failed. i failed to do that in front of him. rghhh.. haiz.. see lahz.. all gerald's fault. but i must had really scared him then. ying knew i would cry. haha. i predicted i would too, so, the night before, i told her not to console, but scold me if she sees me crying. coz i know only then would i not cry, but laugh. =) that's me. guess jen, junliang, treddy and fairuz were shocked too. but poor gerald.. coz i put all the blame on him. told fairuz it's all gerald's fault. aiyaz.. everything is his fault lahz. --> that's not true!<-- for the day, gerald's been accompanying me. ermz.. i mean, at least not what he usually did. he sat beside me during tphm, ensuring i'm alright. tried to ask me what happen oso etc. and.. he always mess up my hair by patting my head. haha. i know he is concerned n i actually was very tempted to tell him what happened. but.. =X i don't want him to worry!. too bad lahz.. he was supposed to be the first to know about what happened.. but it the end.. it was ying. hmm.. so wasn't very myself yesterday. oh ya.. not to forget. i got back my results. =) was pretty shocked with my results. and with gerald's too. haha. how in the world did he managed to score so well for his acep without studying! just imagine.. if he studied.. i think he's gonna top the level manz. haha. that's a rather good job my fren. but but but.. please study lahz you! always must lifen nag at you ahz! you must do well, and must go into the same class as me kz! i need you in class! haha.. =D hmm.. so.. back at home.. after finishing a large cup of ice lemon tea from mac, and after msging serene coz i would really like to know who that person is, i suddenly felt so hyper at night. i guess the ice lemon tea i drank was effective. hyper hyper hyper! haha. i think i'm nuts. i don't know whether my hyperactive actions were really true or was i just hiding away from reality.. i seriously don't know. got both feelings at that time. but anyway, i kept disturbing my friends online den. gerald and ying were most disturbed then. heez. =-to gerald: don't worry lahz!-= i know you msged ying to ask her what happened. but as what she'd said, and what i said, don't worry about me. don't tell me why can't you worry, coz i don't want you to worry! n, i really didn't drink. what long island tea.. never heard of it before kz. it's ice lemon tea from macdonalds! purely that. ooOO.. gerald! u said you would cook for me so don't forget what you said last night! next time if i'm sad again, i know where to go to liao. heez. make sure you come and get me at your door! haha. yum yum.. anyway.. my blog's kinda pretty long.. so shall stop here. happy chinese new year my frenz. i miss you yongjian. =D
-- i'm really nuts-- they won't be able to read my blog coz they don't know my address at all! =D
da xIang jie jie @ 6:34 PM
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